I'm starting to write again

Was talking to Mr.Lum on my feelings towards the occurrence of certain random events. All he did was copied a link into our conversation. And the poem that he had written and posted on that link had somehow inspired me to write again...

So in reply to Mr.Lum's "I have lost so much,"

I knew you loved me and wanted the best for me,
You changed yourself so that I can no longer believe,
No longer believe that what will someday be,
A future together filled with happiness for you and me.

You forced yourself away, ah yes you did,
So painful so deep that you could no longer speak,
I knew it hurt you as much as it hurt me,
But my choice was to keep it away from you, yes I did.
You took this path for us, for the better of both,
And I could no longer thank you more, for loving me so.

I'm also dedicating this poem specially to the first love, S. Thanks for making all the right moves at all the right places in time. It hurt, but it was for the best. I know.

:(

Assignments are in, due dates are extremely near, loads of text to follow up, and the occurrence of certain random events are just not contributing in making things better. Stressing out, or feeling emotionally drained is really not the ideal state I should be in at the moment.

Come to think of it, I kinda' miss late nights of speed, and adrenalin rushes. They're the prefect recipe for disaster, but also a favourable combination of mine when it comes to sweet escapes. Personal choice I guess.

Then again, now is so not the time for sweet escapes.

burn babeh. burn!

Great. There goes our tickets. We are suppose to be all the way up North, soaking up the sun, island hopping and all that. But no...

It's back to books for me, and back to the grind for them. Ouch~

Thankfully, we can still postpone the trip, pay a little more and salvage our return tickets. Well, at least I won't be missing too many lectures. Moreover, the friend and I are kinda having something in mind to make up for the disappointment. So yeah~ hehe... Let's see where this is taking us.

Mean time... Textbooks! Ok fine, they are less terrifying than what they appear to be.

FML

oh my god. I can't believe this is actually happening to me!!! I'm suppose to fly off on Monday and everything came up all of a sudden!!! why!?

Sucks to be me. Thanks Rachael, this is so happening now.

ARGH!!!