Fragments of the Dead Lurve

Ah, my dead Lurve. Come to think of it, it's been exactly two years since I walked out that door. How much things have changed, how different we've both become. Those wounds healed over time, and I figured that its end was rather a blessing instead. Cause I know, that I'll never be the happier person that I am now if it didn't end.

Here's the thing, yours truly was scrolling through some old CDs to retrieve some photos yesterday, cause the classmates wanted them to be posted up on our Facebook group. Photos taken during our SC4 Dikir Barat days to be exact. But those old CDs also mean one thing - the Nightmares of dead Lurve's past.

Okay, I was literally kidding. In fact, I ended up scrolling down memory lane. Looking back at all the sweet memories we once made together, it made me smile again. I've no regrets, because it was what I wanted at that point. At least I know, how it feels like to love, to be loved, and to be done.

I'm happier because

I learned not to be sad nor disappointed because it didn't work.
But to be happy and laugh instead,
because I knew I had given it all to make it happen.

Life's all about the choices, it is how we deal with our fates and what is supposedly destined. It comes down to the point of what we actually want in life, and how we reach out to grab them or to make them happen. A friend of mine once posted, "Fate decides who walks into our paths, but it is the heart that decides who stays."

Note that I'm not asking anyone to go stalk the person you favour or something. Cause I'm sure when a person stays away, he or she wants you to do the same too.

Most friends especially, would know that I'm not the kind that believes in second chances. I believe that when something doesn't happen within a certain period of time, then it'll just won't happen again. Besides, wasting time trying to work out something I don't want or that will never happen is not even the last thing on my mind. Trust me, I'll brush off those who try to tell me that things will not work if I don't try, because I figured that certain things are just NOT worth even at least a try. Seriously.

But, I'm proud that I kept my pride and walked with my head up high. Cause I know that I have at least an integrity to hold up tight. I learned to move on, to love and to appreciate what god has blessed me with. And it has made all the difference.

May this post inspire those who seek a happier path.